Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Back to work

Today is my 8th day back at work and I honestly miss my little guy so much. I miss when he wakes up in the morning talking to himself and then when I go in the room and he gives me a great big smile. I miss rushing the girls off to school in the morning and saying “Have a good day!” I miss having decaf coffee with Poops and watching Peeps run into my arms when she gets off the bus. I miss having my day with my little man talking and smiling and just hanging out. I don’t know how working mothers do this..I’ve never left a baby so little as he is to go back to work and I have to admit it has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life. Finding a daycare provider has been so difficult. His abuela was supposed to watch him but she says it is too exhausting. My father is watching him until I find a replacement sitter. Trusting a random stranger with the life of your child is incredibly hard. To my children whom I adore, I hope you know what a sacrifice I make to leave you each day. You will probably all think I am some silly nut one day to feel this way but I truly miss you and would rather be home with you all than anywhere else in the world.

1 comment:

The Japanese Redneck said...

I don't blame you for not wanting to trust the care of your precious littles' with complete strangers.

Too many bad people in the world now and no one will luv them like their mommy.